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Post by Jacky on Mar 8, 2006 8:31:54 GMT
Vaguely remembering this building from when I was brought here by Faith before, I manage to find my way out quite quickly. And once I'm outside I lean my back against the nearest wall and let myself sink down onto the ground. A thousand thoughts are spinning in my mind.. thoughts on everything, following eachother up in random order, seeming to have naught to do with eachother.. but all occupying my mind. They lied. How could they have lied? We had a pact! FAITH lied! D@mn her to hell.. Had she not made a promise? Why can't I bloody hate her, even now? Why the hell did I nearly kiss her!? I'm with Scarlett, so why can't I ACT like I'm with Scarlett? And why the hell can't SHE keep her mouth shut and realize that it's all just a big game and I'm the one set to loose from the beginning? Why the hell can't I give into that, if that's really what I believe? Do I? Do I believe I won't find my Pearl - ever? If so, why the hell am I even alive? What do I HAVE to live for? Why do I keep fighting? Why can't anything EVER go as I want it to? I frown as that last thought lingers.. why can't it?
Maybe it's because I want too much..? I want Scarlett, I want my Pearl back.. and despite it all, I still want Faith. Undeniably, I still want Faith. And it's eating me alive by now.. the fact that two of the three things I want most have been out of reach.. and the fact that it will remain that way, seemingly forever... that's eating me up.
I sigh and lean my head back against the wall. "I want it all." I tell myself, "Always been like that, too. So why can't I bloody have it?"
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Post by Lana on Mar 8, 2006 9:31:32 GMT
I keep looking at Faith, saying nothing, not even expecting her to answer... it wasn't a question, it was more of a statement, and she's not eager to discuss it with me anyways... I sigh quietly and shake my head: "Go to hell... all of you", - I mutter desperately, turn around on my heels and head towards the large doors leading out of the Hall, my chin high up in the air, but my confidence fading rapidly. Gods following me with their eyes, muttering behind my back, I ignore it. I couldn't care less. I hate this place, I hate its inhabitants, I hate their lies, I hate their stone-like, emotionless masks instead of faces... I want to go back to *my* world - the world where one can see the skies and the sun, feel the breeze on the skin, breathe... yes, breathe the air.
Somehow I find a way out, asking several servants how to get out of this 'horrid maze of a palace'. I see Jack and walk up to him unsurely. Yes, probably he wants to be alone... but if I stay alone in this alien world even for a moment more, I'll scream.
"I'm sorry..." - I sit down beside him, glancing at him and asking myself whether I should have stayed away from him for a while. - "I'm sorry... for everything that is going wrong. And I'm sorry for firing up, I really couldn't control myself back there... I hate them all so much..." - I mutter, sighing heavily. - "I'm even sorry for coming here now and bothering you, but... I couldn't be there alone", - I confess.
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Post by Jacky on Mar 8, 2006 13:39:56 GMT
As Scarlett approaches I'm not sure whether to feel relieved or annoyed. I give her a slight shrug of my shoulders as a reply to all of her apologies. "Luv.." I then start, knowing that my anger at the world would probably be directed at *her* if she'd stick around now, "...I'd really prefer being alone fer a few minutes. Savvy? We'll go back soon." I glance at the door which is the entrance of the building and add, more for myself than for Scarlett; "There's nothing here fer us to stay for." ....and once again, despite my attempts to forget 'bout 'r, Faiths face comes to mind when I say that. Not even her.
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Post by Lana on Mar 8, 2006 17:30:54 GMT
"Okay..." - I mutter, feeling that he needs to be alone and that I have to leave him to himself, even though I badly wisj I could be here, with him, 'cause I can't go anywhere else, 'cause I just... do not belong here. But I get up and glance at him, feeling a lump forming in my throat. Yet again... his Pearl slips through his fingers... when he thought he was so close...
"Just..." - I take his hand in mine, unexpectedly, and give it a gentle squeeze, - "know that... I am here... and your life is my life. And now your dream has become my dream as well... If there is something in the world that I am dreaming of most - that would be the Pearl".
I let go of his hand and walk away.
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Post by Hannah on Mar 8, 2006 19:56:10 GMT
Once the girl left Jack, I make my way over to him. I look down at him, sitting there and hestiate for a moment. He hates us all.. he doesnt realise why we did this and there will be no way he will realise it.
I stop, not far away from him and lean against the wall aswell, looking over Poseidion.. my city.. the white city of gods. Once it used to shine.. now it seems like darkness has gotten over it. It is a weird thing.. but the light of the town seems to fade away slowly. Its queen is dying. The light started to fade the day she became queen.. and now.. after along time.. it will go out entirely..
I look over at Jack "I want to tell you something.." I start slowly. "Something I never thought I would say to you one day.."
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Post by Jacky on Mar 8, 2006 19:57:49 GMT
As Scarlett leaves I sigh. No, I think bitterly, looking up to above where somewhere the sun shines, high above the surface of the water, No luv... you don't dream of the Pearl. You dream of freedom. Freedom from MY unreachable dreams.
I lean my head against the wall and close my eyes, trying hard to refind the strong will, the determination that I've always had. I couldn't have lost it, could I? No.. I *will* stay true to my quest, no matter how many obstacles I have to conquer. No matter how brave I must be, how many disappointments I must face.. call me mad, if ye please. It's doubtfull I'd care. The only thing *I* care 'bout right now is having my ship back. And losing is no longer an option.
I'll find you, m'Pearl. With a heart that's been tested and tried, perhaps, but in the end I'll find you. I vow to myself. And exactly that moment Poseidon speaks up, which causes me to snap my eyes open and look in his direction.. an unreadable look on my face. I didn't know he was there. And honestly, it's the last I had expected.
"...What?" I ask, as his words finally downed upon me and I regathered my wits.
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Post by Hannah on Mar 8, 2006 19:59:23 GMT
"Every father should be proud.. if you would be his son in law (??)" I tell him and look away from him, over the city again.
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Post by Jacky on Mar 8, 2006 20:11:23 GMT
I narrow my eyes in confusion, which then slowly results in a questioning frown. What the hell? The one who kept me and Faith apart since the first time we got together is telling me THAT? The one who threatened to kill me if I'd touch his daughter? The one who attempted to sink my ship in order to 'warn' us for the consequences of a relationship, is saying the one thing to undermine all of his earlier statements?
"...Wha'?" I repeat, confused as hell by now.
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Post by Hannah on Mar 8, 2006 20:13:35 GMT
I give him a small smile. "You heared what I said... Inside.. they didnt say everything. You can get your Pearl back... But you have to make a decition.. Scarlett.. Faith.. or the Pearl..
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Post by Jacky on Mar 8, 2006 20:16:53 GMT
"Are you telling me you'd let me be with Faith?" I blurt out, not even fully listening to what he said, "You'd LET us? No more thunderstrokes hitting the mast? Just like that?" At the moment I don't even think about Scarlett.. as bad as it is, this news poured gasoline on the flickering flame inside of me that burns for Faith - and it's raging so badly that I can't even think of anything but it..
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