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Post by Hannah on Mar 9, 2006 21:05:06 GMT
I start to swim away again, it is wrong to be with him now. He is more then only mad at me and he has more then only one good reason for that..
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Post by Jacky on Mar 9, 2006 21:07:40 GMT
I get up, unable to quell the urge to.. to what? Talk to her? Be with her? I don't know, all I know is that I'd hate myself for letting her turn her back on me now. "Faith..." I call over to her... but then I fall silent again, not sure WHAT to say.
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Post by Hannah on Mar 9, 2006 21:08:42 GMT
I freeze when he calls my name and I close my eyes, waiting for what he called me back for? Will he hurt me? .. try to struggle me..? try to make me feel the way he does now? do what i would deserve?
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Post by Jacky on Mar 9, 2006 21:23:59 GMT
I go over to her, and put a hand on her shoulder slowly. The feeling of contact between the two of us sends lightening bolts surge through my mind and soul, and I take a moment to breath deep before I turn her around and make her face me. "Don't." I then tell her, not knowing what exactly I'm doing.. but knowing that I need her to be here right now. For some reason. "...don't turn your back on me"
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Post by Hannah on Mar 9, 2006 21:25:49 GMT
I swallow hard when he touches my shoulder and even more, when he actually speaks to me.. not sounding totally pissed of; the way I expected it to be.
"I... dont deserve to be with you here.." I whisper and chew on my lip, trying to hide emotions that want to come out. emotions i dont want to show.
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Post by Jacky on Mar 9, 2006 21:32:04 GMT
"Maybe ye don't," I reply, meeting her eyes with my own searching ones, and locking our gazes together, "...maybe ye do. Does it matter what we deserve?" I touch her cheek briefly, then let my hand wander to the back of her neck where I caress her hair, "I..." I start uncertainly, and I let my gaze wander away slightly, "...I don't know anymore." I admit. "I just don't."
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Post by Hannah on Mar 9, 2006 21:34:24 GMT
Hot tears start to run down my cheeks. I cannot fight them anymore, I simply do not have the power anymore.
I look down. "I am so sorry for everything.." I tell him.
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Post by Jacky on Mar 9, 2006 21:39:27 GMT
"Bloody hell, Faith.. *I* am sorry too." I admit finally, feeling a barrier crumble which up til now managed to keep my thoughts to myself. But now I just can't hide anymore. I just can't LIE anymore. For once in my life, I blurt out the truth without thinking about it; "Your father said we could be together!" I say, "And for f*cks sake, that's all I wanted for so long but now.. there's the Pearl, and there's Scarlett, and I have to make a choice and I don't bloody WANT to! I want YOU!"
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Post by Hannah on Mar 9, 2006 22:04:20 GMT
I stare at him, not able to look away anymore, my eyes still full of tears. I cannot move, nor say anything. I just look at him.
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Post by Jacky on Mar 9, 2006 22:06:23 GMT
"I don't want to lose you." I finish, putting my arms around her and holding her closer now that I see she's still crying, "..not when I just got a chance to *have* you." I stroke some hair out of her face and look at her, "...please don't cry?"
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