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Post by Jacky on Jan 19, 2009 18:27:18 GMT
Though Roux still managed slightly to keep that carefully constructed wall up, his eyes gaze away how hard this was for him. He really just wanted to throw away that careful approach, to trust in Vianne in the way that she trusted him. Their stories weren't that different..
He couldn't though. There were others involved in this, besides him, and he kept them in the back of his mind.
"It's alright, Vianne. I'm alright." He mumbled. He breathed in deeply. Her scent was literally dizzying him. "It's you I'm worried about."
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Post by Jacksblackpearl on Jan 19, 2009 18:34:43 GMT
"I'm just as alright as you are" She said, a bit bitter because she knew he wasn't alright. "I thought that.. now that our paths crossed again things might change for the better..but it doesn't look that way does it ?" She sighed and took his hand in hers "don't worry about us... I didn't want to make you worried"
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Post by Jacky on Jan 19, 2009 18:45:53 GMT
"I worried already after that first time I saw you, Vianne. The change in your look was enough for that."
Roux looked down to their hands, as their fingers laced together automatically. He looked back to her face and their eyes locked together.
"...Vianne," He murmered, "...I'm making it worse by being here."
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Post by Jacksblackpearl on Jan 19, 2009 19:04:00 GMT
"you're not making it worse" she replied immediatly "you're making it better, I'm glad to have a friend like you, you make things better Roux..you make things better for me" she looked down at their hands laced together "I can't imagine you making things worse Roux. You've been such a great help before..you wouldn't harm anyone around you, you're too good for that"
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Post by Jacky on Jan 19, 2009 19:08:51 GMT
"What if my presence would be enough to harm you?" He murmered. He brought his free hand up to her face, his fingertips gently touching her cheek to whipe a tear away. He hated to see her sad. He wanted to help. But being here could destroy the careful balance in both their lives. And this was the balance they both needed to keep going.
"I wasn't kidding when I said I should stay away." He said, a distant, regretting look in his eyes.
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Post by Jacksblackpearl on Jan 19, 2009 19:23:29 GMT
Vianne closed her eyes for a second as his hand touched her face. It felt warm and gentle, just like she remembered. "I'm a big girl" she said eventually, looking at him again. The regret in his eyes hurt her inside, he was telling her all of this with a reason, probably a very good reason, but she knew he didn't want it this way. And neither did she, he was her friend, or maybe even more than that. She wanted to feel that way again, the woman inside of her wanted to be his 'something more', but they weren't allowed. "I can handle whatever it is you are keeping a secret. I can help. You know I can..Don't do something you end up regretting...don't separate us" she stepped towards him again, now their bodies were pretty much touching eachother, she was afraid to wrap her arms around him again but she couldn't prevent herself from wanting to be as close to him as possible.
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Post by Jacky on Jan 19, 2009 19:29:54 GMT
The hesitation in his eyes showed as her body pratically brushed against his. She was so extremely close, but also so very far away. Impossibly far.
"Vianne.." He breathed carefully. He seemed to calculate the situation, as he gaze her hand a squeeze. "You have enough trouble already. Trust me if I say I'd make it worse. And there's the others I should think of. Zezette.." He paused, trying to clear his mind.
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Post by Jacksblackpearl on Jan 19, 2009 19:44:11 GMT
"the others know me ... how could they have told you that I'm not to be trusted?" Vianne didn't understand what the others' part in all of this was. "they've seen me before so like.. are you not allowed to see any of your friends anymore ?"
This was going the wrong way, he wasn't giving in, he wasn't letting her help him. He was so close but he pushed her further away. "There must be a way that I can help you, and the others. I refuse to believe that what we've been through in Lansequenette means nothing anymore, that you've forgotten what a good team we are, together."
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Post by Jacky on Jan 19, 2009 19:48:34 GMT
"We are. I didn't forget that." Roux told her. "But if we do this.. if I'm going to stick around.. and it *does* go wrong, I'm not the only one who's going to go down because of it. You know? The lives of the others are at stake and I can't just do what I want because of that." Roux tried to explain.
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Post by Jacksblackpearl on Jan 19, 2009 20:17:07 GMT
Vianna let go of Roux and took a step back. "I forgot what a loyal friend you can be, apparently they're the better friends to you" she said with a sad look on her face "It's understandable.. you probably didn't think we'd ever meet again, did you?" She frowned a bit , not really grasping anything at the moment because everything seemed vague. She didn't know what was going on, she was in the dark and even though the cards had told her to be persistent.. it didn't seem to work. "Won't they hate you now ? for being here, with me ?"
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